I'm surrounded by people, but still, I feel alone.
Just realized that no matter how you and your friends are important to each other, you still can’t depend on them to be there with you during your times of loneliness. My barkada has been pretty busy with their work and school projects, they couldn’t find time to fit me into their schedule. Not that I’m complaining; I absolutely understand. It’s just that the thought terrified me because I’ve always held up the belief that if ever I grow up without a partner, I’d be able to depend on my friends for company.
However, I don’t think that will hold true. These friends of mine don’t even have relationships yet, and still, they’ve been so busy. I don’t want to imagine how lonely I’d be 10 years from now.
I'm Benjie. I'm in my last year of being a teenager. And I'll definitely miss it. I now know what to do with my life but I don't know which way will I use to achieve that. I love classical music. I'm so into Studio 23's CHARMED (Those three witches rock)as well as GREY'S ANATOMY. I can spend too much time like 12 hours straight on the computer. I wish I knew how to play violin. Someday, I would learn that. I'm a techie person. I could be really smart. And I could be really stupid, as well. I hate my hair. I hate my self confidence being low. When I'm lost in the middle of nowhere, I often prefer not to ask questions. I rely on my intuitions (and it often works for me).